Day Fifty and One

The question struck me odd
"Does the structure believe on my behalf?

God, do I need it to?

in the midst of struggle
uncertainty
and doubt

the world changes
faster than my mind
can behold

your
transcending
impending
presence

Do I need the structure
to believe on my behalf...

Giving answers
when I need more questions

shoving assertions
the ecclesiological bully
on the playground

Do I need the structure
to believe on my behalf?

Acting in your name
so I can go back to bed
pulling the covers over my head

another excuse for my passivity
and external resistance to change

on my behalf
pressing down
smothering

in this time
in this place
structure
BACK OFF